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John Boy

After today… I think the Doxology said it the best…

I can’t elaborate at this time, but as events unfold, I will share the details.

God Bless,
J

//::Bold what is true for you:://

> You play an instrument.
> You would rather be in orchestra than band.
> You take the bus to school.
> Black is your favorite color.
> Pink is the best color in the world!!!
> You have read the Harry Potter books.
> You have been out of the country.
> Your friends mean the world to you.
> You have a boyfriend or girlfriend.
> You have eaten squid or octopus.
> Rap is the best kind of music.
> You have been to the mall in the past 24 hours.
> You have gone to a drive-in movie.
> Procrastinating is the best way to do anything.
> You love the ocean.
> Friday nights you party all night long.
> Surveys are fun to take when you’re bored (or procrastinating).
> You love to read.
> Myspace is better than xanga.
> You’re pro life
> Makeup is the best thing ever invented.
> You would rather get chocolate than flowers from your bf/gf.
> You love watching old movie classics.
> You saw the movie Chicago in theaters.
> You wish you were somebody else.
> You doodle when you should be listening in school.
> You consider yourself a nerd.
 > Dogs are better than cats.
> Your best friend is your parent or sibling.
> You’ve fallen asleep on your keyboard before.
> You know what DNA stands for.
> You like songs for their lyrics.
> You’ve danced in the rain.
> You’ve lived in more than one town in your life.
> You’ve accidentally said ‘lol’ in a real conversation.
> You know how to make an origami crane.
> You’ve been to a funeral.
> You love riding roller coasters.
> You keep a journal or diary other than xanga.
> You’ve spent over an hour talking on the phone.
> You have more friends online than in real life.
> You have a swing set at your house.
> You believe in God.
> You believe in ghosts.
> You’ve fallen asleep at school.
> You prefer old-school wooden pencils to mechanical ones.
> You’re glad this survey has much less pointlessness than the surveys that usually come from the crazy minds AwE_iNsPiRiNg_SuRvEyS.

So as you can see in previous posts, my life is a huge dramafest. I am sure that if it was filmed (and tastefully edited) you’d have a great weekly sitcom. So here is what is going on right now.

I went to work today. I had a good day. I was busy most of the day and we’re now in the twenties as far as tickets are concerned. Now, if I can get people to call me back, we might actually hit the teens tomorrow.

So the past few days, I’ve had this on going soap opera about that one night and what has been happening. If you’re interested, here’s the run down.

For those of you who don’t know me all that well, I can tell you the following is true:
A. I am an excellent judge of character
B. I can read people like books
C. I am loyal and persistent

So, with that in mind, here is what is going on. I think I have met the first person I can’t read just like a book, well, at least not a normal book. I understand we’re all very complex people, but this one brings a whole new level of complexity to the game. I spoke with him today at work. It seems like we’re better friends now? Like, I can’t put my finger on it at all… We used to be not distant but not quite “friends”. Kind of like walking the line between co-worker, acquaintance, and friend.

Well, today I am talking to him and rambling on about who knows what just babbling… As he replies I listen and just keep trying to read and not quite figuring it all out. It is kind of like those books I used to read as a kid. It was a “chose your own ending” book. You know, you read a few pages and then at the bottom it gives you two options and two page numbers. This repeats until you read one of several endings to the book. Well, that’s how I feel right now…

… I read so far, and then suddenly I am reading a whole other part of the book, and so on and so forth. I am sure at times that the same has been said for me, but this is just a first for being the reader and not the book being read. I have finally Googled enough to get around and read some stuff he’s posted online. (HaHA! The power of Google)… Very thrown off. I just don’t know.

Like I was talking to one of my friends the other day about this. I feel like it is all a puzzle and I am either missing some pieces or they’re all laying face down and I have to put the thing together without turning anything over and blindfolded. I just want to rip the blindfold and turn and walk away… Then I think about what I am leaving, and I can’t.

Instead I stand and cry out to God, WHY and WHAT? I feel that there is a history between this person and God, but it’s not all pretty. I mean we all have our issues, but I just feel like I am missing that one huge corner of the puzzle.

Also today we were talking about Friday and he was like, “Never again.” Makes me wonder… Why? SO many unanswered questions. I guess I will have to do as Mr. Rogers did…

“Preach the Gospel at all times. If necessary, use words.” – St. Francis of Assisi

Think that over… again serious comments please… Anything, even if it just to say that you read it or that you’re praying for me…

May God’s wisdom guide your footsteps this week and His loving grace abound to you.

With Christ’s Love,
John

I feel I have a message for this evening. Maybe the ones who this post involves will never read this, but that doesn’t matter. I guess I am just going to be transparent. Everyone can take it at face value.

I went out Friday night. I went to a “restaurant” up on the north end of Columbus. I pulled in and was a little take back because it said bar and grill. I was like, that’s fine… So then I meet my co-workers and we all order. I am the only one who orders a non-alcoholic beverage. That was fine, stuff like that never bothers me. Well, until the night progressed.

Let’s just say this… I lost track of how many Pepsi’s I was brought when they brought the alcoholic beverages, and I was sober. That should tell you something about everyone else I was with. So then we go in and play pool. Well, this “restaurant” went from “restaurant” to “bar” REAL fast. I enjoyed playing pool, however, the company I was with was having even more alcohol. I finally had reached the limit at which I could tolerate and said that I had to leave. That’s about all they know.

I went out to the parking lot, drove to the end of the parking lot, parked and stood on a hill, in silence. I felt I had done one of the worst things in my life. Though I didn’t drink, smoke, or do anything “inappropriate” I felt bad. I stood and just stared off into space, praying and talking to God. I won’t ever forget standing on that hill and hearing the door open across at the bar to see my friends stumble out to their cars. Then I see one of my good friends go ripping out of the parking lot at about 50MPH and swerve to get out to the road.

I am not sure who or what took over my body, but I sprinted across that hill to my car, got in, and got out on the road to follow him. I watched him from a distance and all I could do was pray that he wouldn’t wreck. I have a feeling that he saw a dark car behind him thinking it was police because he got off at a different exit. I ended up going past where he lived to make sure he made it home before I could go home.

I guess when you pay attention to those stupid Driver’s Ed videos they all flash back at the most inconvenient times. All I could do was hear the stories and see the scenes in my mind as I was following him. A person that I barely know and barely knows me, yet I feared for his safety.

As non-masculine as this sounds, I don’t think I can emotionally go through that again. I have been told that, “You can’t attempt to save the world.” My saying is, “I can attempt to save my world.”

Now, before you judge me and what not for having friends like I do… I was contemplating this the other day after this and I was driving having a talk with God. Part of me was asking, “Should I distance myself and just walk away from them?” Then I was reminded, “Who did Jesus hang out with?” I thought about the answer, and it wasn’t the ones that didn’t need help, it was the ones that needed him. I mean, how much since does it make to say that Jesus wants Christians to go witness to other Christians? I am all for Christian fellowship, but one of our goals as Christians is to lead others to God. I am not sure how to exactly convey this to all them, that’s where my downfall is.

I did find it interesting. Out of all my friends that night, no matter how much he had to drink, one stood up for me. He raised his voice in my defense several times that night. I am sure that he doesn’t even remember. I remember standing there and being kind of dumbfounded. The things that he defended me for, were things that I stood for, but I never used words to convey that.

I don’t drink, smoke, or have sex before marriage. I never have announced that to the group at work, but when they would joke with me about each, he would step in and tell them to lay off me. He even at one point told one of my friends that he wouldn’t let them ever try to get me to drink.

Part of me wonders, is this guy just observant or does he see something more? He’s referenced church a few times and church camp, but nothing more. You know, it makes you wonder, “What happened?” He obviously is aware of what Christianity is, but why not embrace it? I guess I need to “teach by example and not words”.

So, comments are welcome. Please keep it serious, I will delete the obscene and non-relevant comments, there is plenty of space for those on other posts. If anything simply let me know that you will pray for me and for my friends that I have mentioned here.

Part of me wonders if this will get read by the people who I spoke about. I know one is pretty fluent in Google and I know that this is easily found via Google. Well, if they do, I guess they’ll find out more than they ever knew about me.

May the peace of God be with you all this week. May He keep you in His arms.

In Christ’s Love,
John C. Massie

<- NEW PROFILE PICTURE!
Well, let me post an update. I know it seems that I have fallen off the face of the earth for a while, but that’s what happens sometimes. I am still alive and well. Here is what has been going on for a while.

Last week I helped a church that I used to attend and worked on their server that died. I am working on a deployment project for them sometime in November. That is where I was at on Monday and Thursday of last week. Tuesday was full of a bunch of stuff… Homework, Interview Clothes Shopping, Resume Writing… Then Friday was Party Night with the work group. We were celebrating one of my co-workers getting a new job.

Saturday I was finally able to begin working on my broken car. I am still not fully done, but I am working next weekend to finish up everything. Sunday was church and other various things to do. Monday is today and I have work and college, which got out early (THANK GOODNESS).

So that is my life for the past few days.

I was thinking about this thought this past few days. Where are the Christian guys at? I mean, it seems like I can’t find any true Christian guys at the age I am at (18-19). You know, you got those who are in their twenties and then those who are younger. I know I can’t be the only one out there. I am calling you out… post a comment, claim your faith. I would be interested to see who will stand up and post. Ladies, as much as I do care about your Christianity, leave this one for the guys… It seems to be more of an “uncool” thing to be Christian amongst guys. How ’bout it guys? Do you see this too? Am I just at the wrong place at the wrong time to find people like us? Ladies feel free to comment on your opinion though…

So that’s my big huge post and thought of the moment. Post comments!

Later,
John

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Later,
John

P.S. – My Life = Much Drama (’nuff said)

John = Alive

More on this later,
John Boy

Story Time!

So I was like, hmm… let us go drive about the city. I ring Amy to see how riding with her Dad at the station was going. She was all like, “Dad told me to tell you to come over and have pizza at the firehouse.”

I was all like, “Um… ok.” So I come over and chat with the crew and what not. Then we eat pizza. Then somehow (as it always does, lol) me working on computers comes up and one of the firefighters had his PC there at the station because it was broke. So I go over and work my wonderful computer magic and get the thing up and running.

So then… the story takes a twist. I am sitting there and Amy gets a call for the medic, so off she goes. I am left there chatting with the guys. All very cool… Then there is a call for Rescue, which is what Mr. Honeycutt works on. So he looks at me and goes, get on the truck. So I like hightail my butt out of the chair and run to the rescue to get on. I was all excited to get to ride around.

I got permission to ride around all evening, I felt special . So all my runs we’d go out, almost get there, and get canceled. Still, there is nothing like legally running red lights and flying down streets. Maybe I can go again and get to see some real action.

So then we got back and watched the OSU game between runs. Very disappointing… but it still was a hoot to watch it with all the guys at the station. So, Station 16, 3 Unit… YOU ROCK MY WORLD! LoL, like any of them will actually read that… hahaha. It’s the thought that counts, right?

So all, I am still grinning ear to ear. One of the most exciting nights of my life.

Later,
John Boy

So. Adam canceled. I think I am going to head out for a while though, anyways. I need to stop by Hilliard and get gas. Then maybe I will go to Wal-mart and do some shopping. I guess I could go to the mall too… Who knows, I’ve never been one to have a set in stone plan.

If anyone needs to find me, my cell phone is on.

John